Have you ever hit rock bottom? Have you experienced a place or a time in your life when you felt and believed that there was nowhere to go or nothing to do? Have you ever experienced a time in your life when you felt helpless or that a situation felt hopeless? Have you experienced a time when you exhausted all your resources and explored every option but to no avail? Have you ever experienced a place where you knew that you consumed all your energy, every drop of your creativity, and every piece of your ingenuity but could not make any headway? Have you ever been in a relationship when you loved hard and care much but no love or concern was returned? Have you ever felt overlooked, unappreciated, and abandoned by your loved ones? Have you been there? Have you been or felt as if you were at the bottom?
I have. I have been at the dark place of despair with few options and no ideas. I have been emotionally bruised, financially depleted, socially alienated, and physically compromised. There have been times in my life when I did not know which way to go and I truly believed that I no longer wanted to go; I wanted out of life. I hit the bottom.
But I have learned that my bottom is where I was abundantly blessed. It was at the hardest times of my life that I was able to see God, to hear God, and when my ego didn’t affect my ability to follow God. It was at the bottom where I could cry, yell, question, and beg for mercy without feeling judged or misguided by my own pride. It was at the bottom where I was able to release expectations of what should have been or how I wanted things to be. It was at the bottom where I was able to quiet my despair long enough to hear the voice of my inner wisdom, which I knew was God’s voice. It was at the bottom when I had no one but finally understood that I had to have me and that I had to know God.
I believe that it is at the bottoms of our lives where we learn who we are and what we are made of. It is at those times when the pain is so intense that we are forced to reevaluate our lives, reconsider our purpose, and reexamine our beliefs. It is at that place of sheer desperation that we question our motives, our behavior, our relationships, and our own resilience. Since we have no choice but to look up, we are not ashamed to ask for assistance because we need, but really crave, relief. And so we open up our mouths, open our minds, and open our hearts to receive whatever the universe needs to teach us. We allow ourselves to be guided and spirit-led; we become truly spiritual. We allow ourselves to be shifted and lifted by the Source.
I have also learned that the bottom is the place where healing begins. It is the place when we start to see ourselves differently and, many times, more comprehensively. It is the place where we use our innate talents, gifts, and abilities to create new realities for ourselves, for our families, and for the world. It is a place of power, possibility, and potential where we stretch our wings and test our ability to fly. And since we have experienced rock bottom, failure no longer grips us, indecision no longer delays us, and the need for approval no longer stops us. Since we know the bottom intimately, we have renewed vigor to do what we need to do to live and thrive in a way that honors our very souls.
It is a tough and confusing journey; it is a time of refinement and clarity. And even though we may not fully understand the value of it or even if we can’t recognize the bottom as a gift, at the bottom, we are and will be blessed. We will be blessed by the bottom.
Yes, the bottom is a painful place and a place that we don’t want to frequent regularly. It is a place of extreme brokenness, but it is also a place of great reflection and restoration. It is a low dark place, but it is also the place of enlightenment, encouragement, and elevation. The bottom—the place of blessings!
I can admit it. I have been at the bottom, and I have been blessed! And I have learned that the biggest blessing is a newer, stronger me! And I declare and decree that you will be blessed at the bottom too. Blessings!
Chapter 39 – I Have Learned A Few Things